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A kick in the ass from Kuthumi

Updated: Jan 11

(Image of Kuthumi, taken from the internet)

It is November 14, 2023, and I have booked a one-on-one session with Sarah and Kuthumi due to a past Atlantean life that seems stuck and has been looking down in shock at a black molten plastic-like citadel for so long. 

The conversation flows smoothly and the life of the woman, who turns out to be called Mathilda, breaks free and shares her story (you can read it in The Story of a Thousand Lifetimes) with Sarah, Kuthumi, and me. 


I have a few more issues after this that I would like to discuss, but before I can start, Sarah says: 'Kuthumi says: "she is writing a book, let's support it." He is very enthusiastic about this.” 

I am pleasantly surprised that Kuthumi brings up my book and is even enthusiastic about it. Sarah continues: 'we are really passionate about it, you have to write your story! Many people will find it helpful. There is one thing that keeps you from getting it all out, and that is the fear of having something so precious, your life's work, this beautiful creation, and then seeing it destroyed, just like what happened in Mathilda's life. I know it doesn't sound logical, but that's what this Atlantean life, Mathilda's, experienced: she had to destroy her life's work instead of making it come to life. It's related, is what Kuthumi and I say. You put your whole being into writing this story. There's no other way to do it. You put yourself in it. It's a lot to get all that out.’

'I already published a large part of the story in three parts, but I withdrew them from publication after a while. I want to go through them again, make changes, take out what turned out not to be essential, and add in what is essential that I didn't know at first.' 

‘Kuthumi says, “Aha, aha,” and waves his finger back and forth.” 

'What does he mean?' 

‘The reason you withdrew the books isn't really to edit them. It's because you're afraid it'll be melted down into black plastic.’

'Oh really? It is very precious to me, so I want to do a good job.' 

'I know, believe me, I know. Before I published my first book, I didn't sleep for about six weeks. It requires you to be very vulnerable. Now I don't care anymore, I say oh whatever.’

'I am also used to all kinds of comments. But because it is so dear to me, I want to do more than my best to make it a beautiful story and a beautifully designed book, and only then offer it to the world; it is my legacy.' 

‘Yes, I understand, but a part of you is afraid it will turn into molten black plastic. Continue writing your story, don't wait any longer, it won't become melted plastic. You may think it has nothing to do with this Atlantean life, but it does. It's not supercharged, but there is a connection. Now after realization there is not much to heal, but there is a residue, and you can clean it with a tiny toothbrush. That's all there is to do. Kuthumi takes out his toothbrush and cleans those little dirt. That is it. Kuthumi says we don't have to lead the garbage truck, it's not necessary, some minor adjustments are needed, that's all. I make them all the time, if I hear that what I said or wrote doesn't sound as nice as I wanted, I change one little thing, and that changes everything. Small adjustments. She was so smart that Atlantean life,’ Sarah continues, ‘it was as if her talents were ultimately wasted. Many of us have these stories about getting so close to a goal and then seeing it fall apart. She, Mathilda, had to do this with a group, a collective, she says: “there was no concept of sovereignty with the creation of this communication technology, we acted like a machine. And then let it be destroyed, you feel everything as the group.” But she also says, “It's so different from your book, your writing because you don't have to do it that way.” 

‘Indeed,’ I respond, ‘as long as I write, I don't want anyone around me.’

‘That's the only way to do it. For example, many people talk with a Crimson Circle filter, which is an Atlantean residue, as if it is not their story, but a collective story of the group. Tell it exactly as it happened, in your way, don't weave a collective filter through your story.'

'Certainly not, what I always do while writing is to ask myself whether I am writing it exactly as I experienced it, whether it is pure and truly my experience, and whether I am not copying someone else. I am also careful not to have a hidden agenda in what I write. Of course, I have regularly caught myself being impure, but if all goes well, I managed to pick those out.' 


After this conversation, I traded my lazy life of watching movies with my chair at my work table and completed the story in two weeks.

Aowa Joy

(©2024 by Joy Ligteringen)

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